coffee Convos

It’s funny how we learn about life.

Some of us experience the bad parts first, while others are able develop theirselves a little more before the ‘bad parts’ hit.

But nobody ever tells you what purpose you have in life.

Or, in other words, the what in life that we’re suppose to fulfill to make a constant living.

Without a goal to accomplish, degree to seek or job opportunity to follow, we tend to be stagnant. Lost.

We’re all taught a steady 9-5 job is the goal to reach. Five days of work, two days to recuperate from our work week and repeat.

For some, that’s what we want. We thrive for the routine, the steady lifestyle.

For others like me, we tend to be lost.

Society puts so much pressure on our shoulders to be this, do that, accomplish this by this point in our lives. It’s absolutely ridiculous.

If you feel like this, don’t worry. You’re not alone, despite the loneliness we feel because of it.

The self-doubt. Yeah, that’s always going to be there. It’s whether you decided to listen to it or not.

For me, I’ve always had a passion for watching myself write. Every letter, every word, every sentence. I was fascinate with how I’m able to produce such a minuscule thing.

Others laughed at me for wanting to write. Others applauded me.

I realized, that in life, there will be people who will always have an opinion on what you’re doing with life. Whether you know them or not, like or love them. Their unwanted opinion will always be said.

One day, I told myself ‘fuck their opinions’ they’re probably envious I know what I want to do. Truth of the matter? I started to doubt myself when I realized this.

It in turn led me down a rabbit hole of different things I should do to make more money in life. Which career path will make me the most money.

I’ve tried it all. Switched my majors multiple times, talked myself out of doing what I wanted in life and wondered when I’ll figure out what my purpose was in life.

What am I suppose to do, to contribute to this world. .

That’s when I refocused my efforts into writing again.

I found solace in the one place I knew back then, would give me peace of mind. It may not bring me from rags to riches, but it will make me happy, content.

If my words can connect to someone out there and bring them a type of comfort knowing that they’re not alone in what they’re going through, I will be that person.

That’s what words can do.

It can connect us and create a community based on similar experiences or interest regardless of our backgrounds.

So if you’re feeling lost, stagnant or overall wondering when you’re going to be somebody one day.

Don’t rush.

Our 20s is for figuring out who we are. Especially our early 20s. Those are viable years where our best memories are created. Whether it’s in college or work.

Slow down, take a breath and figure out what makes you happy.

It doesn’t have to make everybody else happy. Only the heavens know that they’re not gonna be happy unless they control something in your life. So do it for yourself.

Enjoy life for a change, don’t rush and most of all, have fun.

You’ll find your purpose in life.

Until next time,

Sweet T.